Apprehension

photo credit: Cedric Smith

I did my first nude shoot today, and I have to say, I was terribly apprehensive about it. Maybe more along the lines of terrified. I did some figure modeling in college, but it hardly compares at all. It wasn't really so much the fact that I wasn't wearing clothes in front of someone I didn't know, but more that I was really worried the images would come out looking pornographic. From what I've seen so far, what the photographer has sent me, my fears are unfounded. He only sent me one picture, but I was floored with how... hell, how fucking cool it was! He did some crazy photoshopping to make it look all grainy and vintage and I just totally fucking love the way it turned out. I'm so excited to get the completed images when he's done editing them, and I think my parents will only slightly disown me if they ever see them. :) But if it turns out more like art than porn, you're already doing something right. I really hope to work with the photographer again. I wouldn't have worked with him at all if his portfolio hadn't really stood out to me, and I'm glad I will have that sort of work to add to MY portfolio. Geez, talking about modeling stuff can be really boring, eh? But it's just about all I have going on in my life right now. Still no job, still no man... just a hobby.